"The moment you come to trust chaos, you see God clearly. Chaos is divine order, versus human order. Change is divine order, versus human order. When the chaos becomes safety to you, then you know you're seeing God clearly." — Caroline Myss, Spiritual Madness: The Necessity of Meeting God in Darkness
"It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it."—Aristotle
"You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty."
-Mohandas K. Gandhi
"If people never did silly things, nothing intelligent would ever get done." -- Ludwig Wittgenstein
"You have to know how to accept rejection and reject acceptance." -- Ray Bradbury
There is nothing scarier than disintegration. I am experiencing disintegration these days. A nightmare struck me one morning this week past, which gave me heebee -- jeebees, waking up tear-filled, even knowing I was dreaming, I could not rouse myself or alter the course of the horse so the night-mare rode on.
All the characters in the dreamscape are me: the fierce tender helper, the wooly-goofy person seeking help, the loafers, the cowardly hermit, the wild crazy defender, the young daredevils, the nurturing caretaker. You all want to know the narrative of the dream - well, it's too gory and awful to tell. Make up your own story and add disintegration to it.
The quotes above appealed to me regarding this bit of disintegration because of the nature of intellectual separation - welcoming chaos - beholding God; holding two opposing thoughts as a higher form of thinking; challenging acceptance; doing the silly willingly, intentionally; and knowing that perfect is impossible. All these ideas seem related in my disintegrated brain somehow... chaotic, disconnecting, dancing with impulses, that flash hither and yon. And connecting on different levels in an ethernet, heathernet perhaps. Hmmm.
Something to consider as I try to muster courage to sleep again - and face the demons inhabiting dreams - and the horses they ride in on.
Dream well, my friends.
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